Love will set you free

It creates emotional attachments, worries and irrational thoughts. When I was alone, void of feelings, I thought of no one, moved untouched through life with nothing but my own existence to keep me awake at night. Now, I spend my days worried about those I love. I worry that I have not given the woman I love the emotional support she deserves; that my twin will move on, find a new side kick in my self imposed exile; that my partner in crime will spiral out of control before I can get to him; that my older sister will resent my failure to be her rock during her time of need; that my little sister will never know me for anything more than her absent brother; that my sparring partner will forget our comedic banter; that intelligent will give up and settle into a life of what could have beens; that Mr. Comedy’s life will find its stride, and I will miss it. This is what it has brought me, a world of self-doubt and concern for others – it was easier when I was slowly suffocating on my own-self pity.